In this my last message I want to write some random things, I hope it doesn't turn into a manifest.😂😂😂😂😂

In my last message, I want us to understand each other better, keeping the tone gentle.

First honestly, I don't think I insulted you. If someone talks foolish, you call them fool, it's that simple. But I'm sorry if I hurt you.

I'm not going to refute or single out every misunderstanding from you, but perhaps we can address this one,

> very sensible arguments against you,

No Birdie. They weren't.. You seemed more stuck on the idea of “everything she said on her old account was true, but on this account she’s pretending to be someone else,” and you looked kind of obsessed with everything from my old account. Some things there were just trolling, and some were simply dumb thoughts that genuinely made sense to me at that age. A lot really changes after 25, you know.

But from your perspective,I realized some of your misunderstandings weren’t actually that strange. They’re still misunderstandings, but since you didn’t know me or my style, it’s not weird that you got the wrong impression.

For me, there are "truths" and "my own truths" in life. I often try to keep my own truths to myself they work in my life since it matches my personality, but it would never work for someone else. Personality and decisions go hand in hand. That’s why I’m someone who thinks people should mostly keep their personal truths to themselves.

For example, I say "women should enjoy random men flirting with them," that's not my truth, but it's generally true. I'm a bit rebellious and distant, also I'm very indifferent to compliments. Its means nothing when someone flirts with me or compliments me, i dont think "wowiee, I must be so pretty!" No I just feel uncomfortable. When a random guy flirts with me, he s automatically a red flag, I see him as a dumb animal who flirting with everyone just because their looking. The guys I've liked so far have been warm but distant types, just like me, at first glance. Maybe I only feel close to people like myself))

But on the other hand, I believe other women should be happy with attention from a random guy (unless he's a harasser), it shows they have value in the dating market. I grew up with girls, and believe me, I know some who feel like the ugliest girl in the world because of a few acne. I've always hated girls being overthinkers, so I'd say them to think simply. I still don't like flirtatious guys, but even today if somone as a general question "what it means when a guy flirts," I'd give a general answer, "It means you're not ugly, you should be satisfied." But if someone asked me personally, "what would you think if a guy flirted with you?", I'd give an anwer from my own truth and say, "Random flirting isn't my style, it doesn't satisfy me." Because personal questions and general questions are different.

So most of the things you thought were lies were actually just me not answering every question based on my personal truth. Sometimes you have to stick to general truths, and you should know how to tell the difference.

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Also,my opinion on sexual jokes has changed, I'm increasingly disgusted by them. Subtle sexual jokes are okay when they do it rare, but those who do it all the time are the problem. It shows that they can't think of anything other than filth in their heads. I used to be more naive and childishly thought it was "just a joke," even finding it funny but now I think more logically.

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Another difference between us is that I’m not endlessly compassionate toward everyone like you. I believe in balance, and I’m picky. I only kind people when I think they actually deserve it. So if I criticize one person for something but speak nice to someone else dealing with the same issue, it’s because the second person actually reasonable.

So you dont need to get excited like you’ve uncovered some huge contradiction with “oh! yesterday you were saying something different! I knew you were liarrr!” 😂 Some of us just don’t have fixer syndrome where we open arms any random weirdo. You need to filter out the chronically hopeless losers. Limited help is the best. Who would want turn themselves into an idiot’s therapist anyway? Why would anyone want to become the person someone dumps all their garbage onto? Don’t make yourself useful like that, Birdie - selfrespect is good thing, if you understand what I mean.

Biggest difference between the way you think and the way I do is the concept of balance. I save my kindness, empathy, respect, and sincerity for people who actually deserve it. They don’t have to be amazing people - just normal is enough.

But you seem to think everything has to be either a complete yes or a complete no. You're not open to the idea that balance can lead to a change in attitude. In your world, you think you have to be endlessly kind, endlessly helpful, endlessly respectful to everyone, and you think that makes you a good soul, but it really doesn’t. Too much self sacrifice just will turn you into a useful idiot. People who know this aren't bullied people as you think, we're simply people with awareness.

(Of course I'm not advocating for bullying, I'm encouraging selective compassion.)

Who honestly gives a damn about these overgrown children? Who has the time for a whining brat dragging everyone down into their drama? pffffffffffffffffffffffffffffft. Just let them drown in their own tears. Look everyone had hard times, life isn't pink always. But normal people suck it up and move on, while these emotional idiots choose to wallow in their own misery. Most of them actually get off on being unhappy. All their want latch onto someone like a parasite, begging for pity and expecting to be coddled like a baby. They are exactly that.🤣 Of course you should help your friends, but within reason. You must have limits.

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Regarding balance... everything in life is reasonably normal, isn't that the very definition of normal anyway? For example, every person should have dated and had a lover in their past, casual or not, it's their choice, but they need to gain experience about how relationships work and the nature of the opposite sex. But this should be at a normal level, a moral level. Going out to clubs every single weekend looking for someone is disgusting; people shouldn't act like stray dogs in heat, thinking, "Someone, I need someoneeee" Life really is more beautiful with someone you love, but being single shouldn't feel like the end of the world either. Here's the other thing you thought I was lying about, when I criticized people who are desperate to find a partner, you automatically took it as No, thinking, "hmm, so she's completely closed off to dating." Then when I said people need to be open to flirting, you were like, "Whaaaat? You said something different before! Liar! Liar!" Because your world consists only of yeses and noes, you have no idea of what is normal level is... You don't know what balance is. You think everything that confuses your mind is a lie, right Birdie? 🤣

You don't realize that for something to be right, it needs to stay balanced, avoiding both extremes.

But you know what Birdie, if you'd ever been in a relationship, you'd be a better version of yourself right now. At least you'd already learned that girls are bothered by creepy stuff, and you wouldn't shock me by sending me unwanted body and butt pic. I didn't watch your videos because I was worried they were your 18+ ones.

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I believed you back then, but maybe Dustybker was actually right when she claimed that a troll prendeting like a russian had many accounts on the site, including influencer accounts. As I got to know you better in recent months, I realized that something was really wrong with you.

It's funny though that you take my troll replies to other trolls so seriously and think I'm their girlfriend. When I gave Chico the same sarcastic "i love you" reply that literally everyone else gave him, because it was related to his question, you were the only one who took it seriously, or even the fact that you found meaning in a silly emoji I sent to that Canadian member whose I don't remember his name lol, what can I say, strange way of thinking. Troll replies to trolls, boy, don't overthink it. Or maybe I should take seriously your all your jokes about you enjoy gay sex, after all, you were the one who said your jokes came from your subconscious. Or should I take that wallpaper of yours, where a guy having sex with a dead girl in an autopsy, from anna fritz movie, seriously and think you're a necrophiliac? You even tried to find meaning in my meme profile picture based on my real life, so its mean we should think about you the way you think , you've said many times that your trolling always comes from your subconscious. I'm just holding up a mirror to you.

But if you're open to advice, I'd like to say, reconsider your way of thinking. Seriously. Because you were raised in an overly religious environment, your thought process is broken. Very broken. I think you're a smart guy born into the wrong family. Your tendency to look for perversion in everything is entirely your own problem. That's just how so religious people are, excessive restrictions make them incapable of thinking about anything other than lust. Therefore, every misunderstanding is actually a reflection of your own mind. Trust me, normal human relationships aren't as perverse and dirty as you think, you're just trying too hard to see it that way. Living like this makes you disgusted with everyone. don't do this to yourself, you have the potential, I'm sure you can recognize your problems. And develop your own personality. Copying me and my writing style shows you have low self esteem, and honestly that's very...cringe. Don't be a personality thief, find yourself. Fix yourself.

I'm not going to bother trying to disprove your misconception that I'm flirting with anyone I reply to. With your current mindset, it's impossible for you to understand anyway. Your mind made paranoid by religiosity is brainwashed into thinking "if a guy and a girl talk, there must be something perv." You are free to believe whatever you want

and as for the other irrelevant meanings you overthink and attach to everything, you can keep believing them too

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And all I ask is that you act like I never existed, don't talk behind my back, don't spread my personal infos, and dont spread your lies. I only visit this silly site to kill time at job and I don't want to deal with a shit show .I hate people who become enemy just because communication is cut off😂 I have many reasons to hate you, but I will just ignore you. Your infos, your secrets and your friend's secret snitched about, is safe with me. You betrayed dbone, he trusted you when he told you that. Take a lesson from this and don’t do it again.

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But know that I’ve always really appreciated your maturity. It’s probably too early right now, but I’m sure you’ll become a much better version of yourself after 25. Maturity is so valuable , let it help you fix yourself Birdie. Just sit down for once and consider that maybe I and the others here might have been right about your mental health.

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If I hadn't given you my personal infos, I wouldn't be writing this.🤣 I would just say another person from the internet and move on. But I am angry with myself for trusting a creep when I’m usually such a private person. You're the first and last person I've ever trusted online, but I don't regret it. Learning this lesson online is better than learning it in real life. Maybe this experience saved me from trusting a creepy person in real life, my trust mechanism updated itself, and I don't think it's a coincidence. Life experience is good.

And... you will be blocked after every notification you send me. I'm not trying to be mean, but your weird assumptions, weird content, stalking... you seem sick, which is really start stressing me out, and I need to protect myself. Just know what "no" means and never text me again. After this message, I will give you the right to reply and then I will block you forever. Now it's time to be silent forever, anyway, best wishes for you.❤️ (just an emoji lol, no romantic meaning.)