Today is 11.05.2026. Our 6 month anniversary. It's very strange thinking about how fast it has gone by, but yet how long it feels like we've been together. It has felt like we have known each other for a lifetime that felt like a day. Every single day I have been with you has been better than the previous – I couldn't imagine, and never want to imagine a day where i dont wake up saying good morning to you, or a night that I would go to sleep without saying goodnight sleepwell. I hope forever that we continue with these same habits and never drift apart. I miss you every moment we are apart and I am excited for our future hoping that we will become evermore closer with every second.
Before you I didn't know who I truly was. I was jumping between personalities, people, thoughts, activities, everything. I was lost, I felt like something was missing, even though I didn't know what it was at first. When you came back I found myself, I knew you were what was missing. When we got together everything improved, I found the people i want to be around, the things i want to prioritise, my routines got better, my confidence improved. Last year I got my highest academic achievement yet, and I think you helped majorly in that by providing me with focus and a reason to continue. Not only have you improved me but you have improved many lives such as my family's, my parents have benefited from the better me ever since you, and my parents also love you, my mother is always thinking about things to get for you. Everything has been better ever since I've been around you.
When I first saw you back in year 6, at a parent briefing about coming to the highschool, I saw you and I thought to myself about how out of the waters I was, and how much prettier you were compared to me. I was scared, scared of being the odd one out and being rejected – but I also knew from that moment, that these are the people I want to be a part of, this is what I want to strive to be like. From the moment I saw you, not the moment you even met me you benefited my life. I then met you in year 7, and that was really scary. I can't tell you how scared I was, you were so stunning and I was a small chud compared to you, and I think thats why most of year 7 i almost avoided striking conversations up with you. Towards the end of year 7, you started sharing my food, this was somehow our bonding method, we grew very close over those months and that's when people started shipping us together. Year 8 started and we somehow didn't drift apart at all over the holidays, straight back into you sharing my food, it was all so perfect, but I was scared of admitting how I felt about you, as I still thought you were way out of my league and you would laugh in my face lol. Then half way through Year 8, you left the school. I can't lie, I was heartbroken. I didn't know what to do, as my own fear of not being given a chance, ended my chance right there and then. I was still craving you after you moved, and I gave myself a deadline to move on from you. I was that obsessed. That deadline was hit, and I made myself move on. Then out of nowhere, Year 9 you come back, seeing me for the first time in a year with a broken arm, chopped ass hair, and a thick ah hoodie. I didn't know what to think, all my thoughts and feelings came rushing back, it was the definition of unbelievable. Almost 5 weeks after you came back, we had a careers lesson, we sat next to each other from stealing our friends' seats, we played Contexto, and we absolutely cooked together. That was the best lesson I've ever had (still to this day). After that lesson i knew i was still obsessed with you and started trying to talk to you more and dedicated my every move around you towards being with you, i remember trinity hinting at you liking me and me pretending like i didnt hear it because i didnt want you to think i knew and like stress and change your behaviour or something. At the halloween maze, we held hands and it was the most exhilarating thing of my life, i was so scared, so overwhelmed, so in love. We then admitted our feelings about each other in an emotional mess of a night after we had hung out, and then not long after we officially got together. After that conversation I knew this relationship was different, I had never cried like that about a girl, let alone a girl I wasn't even with yet. I knew I wanted you, I knew I was going to try for you and everything I do for you, something I had never done for anyone else.
You being around me affects me in ways you can't know. You affect every part of me, my mood, my thinking, my opinions, my activities, everything. Genuinely you have made my health improve, idk why but ever since we have been together my confidence has improved and i started going to the gym, i was no longer scared though i also think a part of it was wanting to be strong enough to “protect you” and help you when you need. When you're around me I feel so protected and safe emotionally, I feel like nothing can really hurt me – or if it does, you help me feel better again, straight away. You make me feel safe and understood, like I can say anything to you and not worry. I love having someone that feels like an extension of me, someone I can say anything and not worry about, someone I can't trust will do all the things I trust myself with. You've changed my thinking from how can this help me, to always being how can this help us, you're included in every decision even if you're not there.
I admire you so much, you're an inspiration to me and to others. I wish you wouldn't judge yourself as much as you don't know how much you're worth, and how badly you outshine others. Your kindness is incredible, you're so nice to everyone, but fair you treat everyone the same no matter what or who they are. You're absolutely stunning to anyone who is lucky enough to be caught in your gaze. Your patience with me and others even when they piss you off is so admirable. Your humour I love, your jokes and “stims” and just everything about it no matter how tiktok it is. I love the way you solve and how you look at everything from an angle that compliments the way I look at things. We work together so well, literally the “Missing jigsaw piece to my puzzle.” like you're so perfect for me. I love the vlogs you do. They mean so much to me. I love waking up to your beautiful face and seeing you getting ready to go to work, or talking to you whilst videoing you getting ready. I love everything about you, please don't ever change. I could learn a lot from you and I am everyday.
I like to think our relationship is perfect, and to me it is. But it would be foolish to ignore the arguments, stress, and problems we have. Each one of those was a hardship we experienced, but we experienced it together and we got through it together just like everything, because we work well together. Our arguments are just another problem that we have to sort through, but like I said before, your way of thinking compliments mine and it allows us to grow stronger and learn in the future, rather than just move on without thought. I am learning, myself and I'm sorry when I do not explain things clearly, do not help you properly, or become too stuck in my thoughts to properly understand what's going on. I am learning and I learn a lot from you every day.
You've taught me so much, you have taught me how to be careful and how to be patient, and most importantly how to have determination/discipline. Before I was with you, I did not know how to be with one person, how to work towards something, how to be patient and let it come. I was trying to find shortcuts, and push for something faster than it was meant to come. But with you I knew you were what I wanted, I knew I had to work for what I want and I knew it would take time. I didn't try to rush it, I let it happen and it worked out well. I plan to continue working towards my ultimate objective (dying together at 2000 years old). Thank you for teaching me so much by just being around, please don't ever stop.
I love you so much bro. You mean the entire world to me and more, I would genuinely do anything for you as you are my everything. As long as I have you I am fulfilled and completed. You have done so much for me and I hope I can repay you at one point. I wish I had the money to give you whatever you want as you deserve all of it. I love you so much and I am going to continue loving you until I die, no matter what happens.
Our future is filled with bright and very realistic accomplishments. I can see us having kids, getting married, traveling the world, having careers, moving to New York City, studying at the same University. I can see all of this, and I don't think it's unrealistic. I see all of this with you and I know we will have a reliable plan to achieve it as it's both of our goals. I see everything in my future being with you and I couldn't imagine anything different. I can't wait to achieve all of this with you and be around you every day.
The last ~6 months + of my life have been exponentially improved by the pure presence of you. You mean the absolute universe to me, and there is nothing I wouldn't trade to hold you in my arms till my dying day. I can't wait to experience our future filled with great achievements, incredible sights, arguments, the best time of our lives and more. The important thing is I see this all with you and that's never going to change. Thank you for everything you have contributed to my life. I will never stop repaying for what you have already done and I will forever be in your debt and forever be there if you ever need anything. I love you so so so so so much, please don't ever leave me, im not ever going to leave you no matter what. I love you so much, happy 6 months my amazing perfect beautiful stunning wife (unofficially).
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