Hi, Jeff.

I'm writing this here because I really do not have the courage to say this to your face at all. (alam mo naman shy type HAHHAHAHAHA) that's why I decided to write everything down so masasabi ko lahat. I know this might come out of nowhere and I know we see each other almost every single day ( i mean hindi araw-araw kasi laging sus is pend KWKWAJA ) and I was so scared that things might get awkward or weird between us after you read this. pero mas takot akong itago 'to and keep carrying this feeling all by myself. so pls just read this all the way through and do not feel pressured or burdened by anything okay. I am not asking for anything in return and I do not expect you to feel the same way. and honestly I don’t know if meron kang someone else right now or if there is already someone you like or someone you are seeing. but if ever there is please I hope you can just tell me directly kung meron man and I promise I will truly understand it completely and respect it. I will not be upset and I will not make things difficult for you I just prefer to know the truth rather than keep wondering.

It all started way back when we were still in Grade 11. That was when I first started feeling something different for you but back then I told myself it was nothing serious. I thought it was just a simple crush just infatuation something that would fade away on its own after a while kaya sinubukan kong pigilan yung nararamdaman ko. I tried so hard to stop it I tried to convince myself that I was just imagining things that I would get over it soon and that it was not real at all. I kept telling myself maybe I was just drawn to the moment and that it would not last. but guess what it never went away. It never faded it never got smaller it just stayed there quiet but always there deep inside my heart.

Now that we are in Grade 12 everything has become so much clearer to me. what I thought was just a passing feeling back in Grade 11 has grown into something so deep and so real that I can no longer deny it. this time there are no more what ifs there are no more buts and there is no doubt left in my heart at all. I really truly like you so much more than I can ever explain. every little thing about you makes my days brighter and better. the way you talk the way you smile the way you carry yourself even the small things you probably do not notice about yourself all of those things make my heart feel so full and happy. even the most boring and tiring days feel so much better just because you are there. minsan ayaw ko na ngang pumasok sa school pero pumapasok pa rin ako kasi alam kong makikita kita even if we do not talk much or even if I just see you from a distance it is already enough to make my whole day better. but I need you to understand this very clearly okay. ndi naman ako naghahangad na magustuhan mo rin ako pabalik. I am not asking you to feel the same way I am not expecting anything from you and I am not waiting for you to change your mind. I know feelings cannot be forced and I respect whatever you feel or do not feel completely. please do not feel guilty or awkward or pressured just because I feel this way about you. u do not owe me a reply you do not owe me an explanation and you do not have to change how you treat me at all. u can stay exactly who you are and treat me exactly the same way you always have nothing between us has to change. all i'm asking for is just one simple thing and that is please just let me like you. hayaan mo lang akong magustuhan ka. pls do not make me stop please do not distance yourself from me and please do not start acting differently around me just because you found out. just let me keep admiring you and let me keep feeling this happy warm feeling whenever I see you or think about you. liking u makes me truly happy it's not a burden it's not something that hurts me it is simply something that brings me joy every single day. ket kaklase o kaibigan lang talaga ung tingin mo sakin and even if you never feel the same way it is completely okay with me. I do not need you to like me back for me to be happy I am already happy just liking you from where I am. that is more than enough for me.

I tried so hard to fight this feeling you know. sinubukan kong sabihin sa sarili ko na baka mali lang ako pero my heart just would not listen it kept going back to you over and over again no matter how hard I tried to turn it away. eventually I stopped fighting it because I realized that this feeling is pure and real and it makes me feel so alive. I would rather be honest with you now and get this off my chest than keep hiding it and pretending it means nothing when it actually means so much to me. Wala na akong hinihinging higit pa doon as long as you are there and you let me feel this way I am perfectly content.

I want to say this one more time so you understand it clearly. ndi ko hinihingi na suklian mo ung nararamdaman ko. I am not waiting for you I am not expecting anything to happen between us. I am telling you this simply because you deserve to know and because carrying this inside felt too heavy to keep to myself alone. Nothing has to change between us. If you do not feel the same way that's okay. kung hindi mo alam sasabihin ayos lang din. u do not even have to reply to this at all if you do not know how. I will not be upset I will not be hurt and I will not hold anything against you. I will remain exactly the same classmate and friend I have always been and I will never treat you any differently.

Thank you so much for taking the time to read all of this even though it is so long. Thank you for being exactly who you are and thank you for being the reason behind so many of my happiest days ever since Grade 11. most of all thank you for just being there. I really truly like you more than words can say and I'm perfectly happy just liking you from here as long as you will let me. That's all I ever wanted to say. 🤍