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📖 MY STORY — The Seed That Grew Through The Crack
PART 1
I grew up in a home where I never really had enough time to know my father. I only have small memories of him from when I was little — brief moments that I wish could have lasted longer. Before I truly got the chance to understand who he was, or build that bond every child deserves, he was gone.
It happened during my SS1 — on a Friday, Visiting Day at school. I was expecting both my parents to come see me. But only my mom arrived. At first we were happy, laughing and catching up. But I could tell there was something heavy on her heart. She waited until we got home for midterm break, and that's when she told me — my father had passed away. That day broke something inside me, but I had to learn how to keep breathing anyway.
The hardest part isn't just that he's gone. It's that I don't know where I come from. I don't know which village in Orlu I belong to. I don't know my father's people. I don't speak his language. I feel like half of myself is a mystery — like I belong nowhere, to no one, except my mother and her few relatives I barely know. That emptiness sits with me sometimes, quiet but always there.
From that moment, I watched my mother become everything. She became both parents, carrying the weight of our family on her shoulders alone. I saw how hard she worked, how tired she got, and something inside me shifted. I couldn't just be a child growing up slowly — I felt this urgent need to grow faster, to become capable sooner, so I could stand beside her and share the load. I started looking for ways to earn money — affiliate marketing, digital skills, anything honest that could bring something home. I wanted to be the one she could lean on, not just the one who always needed help.
By God's grace, I finished secondary school. But just as life seemed to be settling, new storms came. My mother faced political attacks that drained her health and her finances. Money that should have built our future went instead to saving her life and clearing debts. She recovered — thank God — but we started over from zero.
When it was time for university, I got into Akwa Ibom State Polytechnic. But I quickly saw what many don't talk about — how the system demands money at every turn, how the costs keep rising, and how every time I reached out for help, it was like asking my mother to carry one more thing when she was already at her limit. I hated that feeling — knowing her struggle and adding to it.
Then my sister was preparing for school too. And I saw the future clearly: if I stayed, neither of us might finish. The money that stretched thin for one would be impossible for two. So I made the hardest decision of my life — before my first semester was even done, I stepped back. I dropped out so that resources could stay in the house, so my sister might have a chance, so my mother wouldn't be crushed under the weight of us both. Some days I regret it. Some days it feels like I gave up on my own future. But I believe everything happens for a reason.
PART 2
There was another quiet pain that contributed to my decision. I looked around and saw my mates — how they dressed, how confidently they walked into class, how comfortable they felt in their own skin. And I felt small. I didn't have nice clothes. I didn't feel like I belonged there. I lacked that confidence, and it weighed on me more than I ever told anyone.
I remember telling my aunt I needed clothes. I hoped she'd understand. But what she brought me were her husband's oversized shirts — not even my size, not what I had hoped for. I stood there holding them, and it hurt more than she probably knew. I regretted even asking. I remember praying quietly, "God, please help me. One day, I won't have to ask anyone for anything again."
And then, the little support I had — that monthly payment of 30,000 naira my aunt was sending — she cut it off once she knew I wasn't in school anymore. She stopped talking to me too. It stung. It felt like because I wasn't wearing a uniform, I wasn't worth investing in anymore.
Some days I sit with my thoughts and wonder — did I make the right choice? I miss the classroom. I miss learning. I miss the path I thought I was on. But then I remind myself: I didn't fail school. I chose my family over it. That's not defeat — that's sacrifice. And sacrifice is the soil where great things grow.
I don't have all the answers yet. I'm not exactly where I want to be. But I'm still standing. I'm still here. And deep in my heart, I carry this quiet, unshakable belief: this is not my ending. This is just the beginning of a different kind of story — one that I get to write myself.
One day, I'll have my own business. I'll dress how I want. I'll help my mother rest. I'll support my sister with pride. And I'll look back at this season — the empty bank account, the oversized shirts, the closed doors — and I'll smile, because it all forged the strength in me that nothing else could.
My story is still being written. And the best chapters? They haven't even been written yet. ✨
"The seed knows that before it can become something beautiful, it has to go through the dirt. You're not stuck in the dirt — you're being planted. Your harvest is coming. Keep believing. Keep growing." 🌱💙